let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful

There's a part of me that would rather fade away than be alone,
and the rest of me already knows that I am nothing without you.
Forgive me for falling so deeply, too fast,
but happiness is a concept that I have failed to grasp, up until you saved me.
Because I have stared into my own eyes,
only to see good intentions masking the pain.
So, tell me, what can you see that is worth looking for again?

I love you more.

Breathing does not come easily when I lie awake at night
knowing all I've dreamed to be is held in your arms,
so tight that it feels like forever truly exists.


Because your words have intentions that tempt me to believe
that love has a purpose, other than to deceive those ignorant enough to fall.


Show me, beyond a reasonable doubt, 
that there is meaning to the phrases you utter so sweetly
because you've got me where you want me,
and you're welcome to keep me.

- Afraid to close my eyes.

To Hell with demons,
there's a different type of monster plaguing my past.
He waits until I'm content and then resurrects my pain,
lurking in the shadows; awaiting a chance to strike again.

This evil being finds me in the darkness; my most vulnerable state,
to take advantage of me instead of facing his own mistakes.
Monster, you think I have not noticed your sins?
Drowning the sorrows of spoiling my innocence.

I wish I had the courage to confront you, but I am much too weak,
and in your presence I dare not speak.
Your eyes reveal a reflection of the hurt I've seen countless times,
so out of pity, I'll conceal the suffering I can see in mine.

Monster, you have scarred my virtue more than I know how to describe,
but if you recall what you stole from me that night...
I hope the thoughts eat at you,
and rob you of your precious sleep - as they often do for me.

I hope your body goes numb,
upon realizing what I have become -
as a result of your guilty pleasures.

I can still feel your touch sometimes,
I kick with violence and desperation.
And I swear I still hear your whispers in the silence
"Go back to sleep."
Monster, I am much too weak.

the galaxy is melting.

How does it feel to know you're everything I need?
The butterflies in my stomach, they could bring me to my knees. 




Words are useless when this embrace is the only thing holding me together.
My breathing would be in vain if you did not offer such a dramatic change to the way I viewed the world.
I've learned to move forward, and forget about the hurt.
When I stare into your eyes, they break me down. 
The emotion within them feels like the only thing I cannot grasp.

Rediscovering Relient K was the best part of my daaaay.

We should get jerseys 'cause we make a good team
But yours would look better than mine, 'cause you're outta my league.
And I know that it's so cliche to tell you that everyday
I spend with you is the new best day of my life.
Everyone watching us just turns away with disgust.
It's jealously, they can see that we've got it going on.

And I'm racking my brain for a new improved way
to let you know you're more to me than what I know how to say.
You're okay with the way this is going to be,
this is going to be the best thing we've ever seen.

If anyone can make me a better person, you could.
All I gotta say is I must've done something good.
I came along one day and you rearranged my life,
All I gotta say is I must've done something right.
I must've done something right.

Maybe I'm just lucky, 'cause it's hard to believe
Believe that somebody like you'd end up with someone like me.
And I know that it's so cliche to talk about you this way
But I'll push all my inhibitions aside.
It's so very obvious to everyone watching us
That we have got something real good going on.

And I'm racking my brain for a new improved way
To let you know you're more to me than what I know how to say.
You're okay with the way this is going to be,
this is going to be the best thing we've ever seen.

If anyone can make me a better person, you could.
All I gotta say is I must've done something good.
I came along one day and you rearranged my life,
All I gotta say is I must've done something right.
I must've done something right.


♥ 

" change " doesn't exist for you

From where I sit the moon is in plain view.
This makes me wonder, are you watching it too?


It's a sudden comfort to know we share this star.
We may not know each other, but from the moon we are equally as far.


Disregarding the circumstances, you and I are the same.
If life hands you a second chance, I'll prove to be proud of my last name. 

- a blip in the existence of a structure vast and great.

I will scream out your name until my throat bleeds
to remind you of all the lies you made me believe. 
Then I will drop to my knees, and wait for sunrise,
feel the heat of my anger in the sting of my eyes.


When I wake up, I'll start over again,
stare in the mirror and beg for an end.
Please, let me go. My life has no meaning.
Somewhere inside me, there's a beauty I'm not seeing.


All I can do is weep, my body is slowly being drained of life.
I will curl up into a pathetic heap, and wait my turn to die.